Sunday, March 18, 2007 5:59 PM, EDT

Hello,
I’m getting ready for my next infusion tomorrow. We have to be there at 8am to meet with Dr. Walsh and the infusion should start at about 9am.
Yes, I’m still worried, more like paranoid, about my port but I’m sure I’ll be fine. There is a numbing cream, called Emla, out there that you can use to ease the pain of a port access. When I first mentioned it to Dr. Walsh he pretty much blew it off. He’s a big, burly man who spent time in the Army so he’s tough. How he didn’t take one look at me and think I would be a prime candidate for the Emla is beyond me. Maybe he didn’t see my Vera Bradley. Maybe I should have tried a little harder to find a way to work into the conversation the fact that my favorite color is pink.
We finally got his nurse practitioner to write the prescription for us. However, if we don’t get a chance to get it filled, I’m sure I’ll be fine!! You know I’ll let you know how it goes! As with most everything else in my life it will probably be much ado about nothing.
However, I just might find myself popping a Lorazepam tomorrow morning J
I’m only brining one bag to clinic with me tomorrow. It might be the biggest bag I can find, but it will just be one. Alison and Cat: you know me and my bags!! I am the extremely lucky recipient of a laptop since my last infusion so I’m planning on bringing that as well. I can sit and write and I hope to answer some emails while I’m there. So if you think of it, drop me a line and I’ll answer you if I can.
I’m getting ready for the nausea and the lack of appetite by eating my way through this weekend. I feel like a bear that’s getting ready to hibernate because I am eating everything in sight.
Greg and I had a delicious lobster dinner last night complete with steamers. The only thing that would have made it better would be if we were sitting on the deck of a waterfront house in the summertime. However, our kitchen was good enough for me!
We went to Pizzeria Uno today for lunch and had some pizza. However, what I was really craving from there is the deep dish sundae. Have you ever had one??? If you haven’t then I strongly recommend you should. It’s a warm chocolate chip cookie pie with vanilla ice cream, hot fudge and whipped cream. I love them!! I had to share mine with Greg though. I’m not the best sharer in the world. Why does he say he doesn’t want dessert and then proceed to eat half of mine??
I’m going to my field hockey game tonight. If Bill Belichick were submitting his injury report, I’d be listed as doubtful. However, it will probably be a game time decision. J We play every Sunday night at Teamworks in Northboro. The team was organized by a group of ex-Wachusett field hockey players so the name of our team is WTB. If any of you were (or are) remotely affiliated with Wachusett field hockey you know all about WTB. It’s a tradition dating back to 1983!!. If you’re ever looking for something to do on a Sunday night, you should come see us play. No really you should, we don’t have a lot of fans…
If I play it will probably only be for five or ten minutes. I haven’t really played since the beginning of January so I’m a wee bit out of shape. I can always blame it on my extensively diseased lungs though. Even if I spend the entire game on the bench I’ll still have fun. I love the group of women I play with. They’re fun and they’re funny. We’re really good (we were back to back league champs in the summer/fall) but we don’t take it too seriously. so we’re able to have a lot of fun while we’re playing. They sent me Tulips while I was in the hospital. Thank you they were beautiful!! We’re all friends in addition to being teammates and I’m really looking forward to seeing them tonight.
I’m going to try as hard as I can to start exercising again. I figure the stronger I am, the better my chances of beating this cancer. And if I can’t beat it, then I plan on at least knocking it back on its heels a bit.
I forgot to thank Patty Hurley for her Habitat Lasagna she made for us back in February. I listed everyone who cooked for us except for her and I feel horrible. Thank you Patty. It was delicious.
Just a note on the family pictures because I was feeling like I portrayed myself as a bad mother. I do have a ton of pictures of my kids. However, they’re all on film. As I’ve mentioned, the film camera is mine and the digital camera is Greg’s. And I’m sure most of you mothers out there would agree with the following observation:
I’m not present on any family vacations, I don’t attend birthday parties and I’m not around on Christmas. Oh wait, I am but I’m behind the camera!!!! So, I’ll have to force Greg to take some pictures of me and the kids!!
Have you noticed that I’m in love with the exclamation point?
Happy 40th Birthday Pam. I love you!!!
Thank you all for your kind words and your well wishes.
Love,
Kim

Sunday, March 18, 2007 9:08 AM, CDT
Hey there, it's your long lost cousin in Sunny South Florida to let you know that we are all praying for you daily. Your story has encouraged everyone around you to be more loving and appreciative towards life and having family that loves them. I am happy to know that you have people from all over supporting you and helping you get through this. We all PRAY that you remain strong during your treatments and to think of your children who need you to be a strong. Be faithful and hopeful. My favorite quote that Dwight's (my husband) mother always says is "This too shall pass". There is a light at the end and you BETTER keep your eye on it girl... You will be Alright! I love you so much, we all do and again, You are in our thoughts and prayers DAILY! Keep your faith in GOD
Meredith Allentheallens913@yahoo.comPort St. Lucie, FL