Hello All,
I had another appointment yesterday and received another round of 5FU and leucovorin, which means I’m dragging around my fanny pack. I also had the chance to speak with my Nurse Practioner, Christine. She’s such an amazing person. She was able to further calm me down by going through my PET/CT scan results again!
She isn’t concerned with the stomach activity either. It’s right in the area where you would get heart burn, which then stressed me out because I was thinking that it’s also right in the area where all my cancer is. However, I’m worrying about nothing. And if there was something to worry about, Dr. Walsh would have ordered more tests. I know I mentioned this in my last post but I tend to obsess and repeat myself when I’m worried and stressed.
I will try not to worry and stress until my next scan. But speaking of which, my cousin provided me with the best expression for my stress surrounding any upcoming scans: scanxiety. Don’t you just love it??? She heard it from another cancer patient she met. So you will be seeing me use scanxiety in future posts (as a matter of fact Word is telling me that it’s not a word and I’m adding it to my dictionary).
I also had the opportunity to express my dissatisfaction with the Fellow we’ve been working with. I think he plays it right down the middle which for me is completely useless. Dr. Walsh is very blunt—very. He leaves nothing to the imagination and tells it like it is. I like that. I need that. Our Fellow doesn’t answer my questions and usually leaves me more confused than anything. So, Greg has been telling me for months that I should “do something about it.” And I did. I actually stood up for myself. I asked that I not receive test results from him anymore. And he may be off my case for good. I feel bad because I don’t want to hurt his feelings but I can’t deal with him giving me any more test results.
On a totally unrelated topic:
I’m excited that I may be soon re-entering the working world! I sent my resume to an employment agency and they have an opportunity to design and write training programs for one of their clients. It’s far from being a done deal because I haven’t even interviewed with them yet but I’m on the top of the world just thinking about it.
But here’s my dilemma: When exactly do you think I should bring up the whole cancer thing? I will have to mention it because I still have to go for treatment every other Monday and then I have to get unplugged every other Wednesday (which takes all of five minutes but I still have to get to Worcester to have it done).
I mean is it a “oh by the way….” kind of a thing or an upfront kind of a thing. I was wondering if I could work it into the conversation somehow but I’m not sure there’ll be an opportunity. So, I would welcome professional advice from anyone who would like to offer some!!!
And if you haven’t seen the British man who sang opera on Britain’s Got Talent you need to click on the link below. He was on Oprah last week (say “he was singing opera on Oprah” a few times fast—it’s kind of hard!!).
http://www.maniacworld.com/Phone-Salesman-Amazes-Crowd.html
Bob Corcoran sent it to me a few weeks ago (thanks Bob—I love your emails) and I’ve listened to it almost every day since. Every time I listen to it, I get the goose bumps and tears in my eyes.
I almost want to get some Opera and start listening to it. I actually found myself in Borders on Saturday night listening to some Opera cd’s to see if I want to buy one—that’s soooo not me!! So if anyone has any opera suggestions, I’d love to hear them.
Listening to him sing also reminded me of the scene in Pretty Woman when Richard Gere brings Julia Roberts to the opera and after the performance, she tells a woman in the next box something like, “I liked it so much I almost peed my pants.” And Gere then leans over and says, “She said she liked it better than Pirates of Penzance.” Oh, I love that movie.
Pretty Woman is one of those movies that I can see over and over again. Which then makes me think of all the movies I can bump into on TBS and no matter how many times I’ve seen them, I seem to stop on that channel and watch the movie from wherever it is in the story. Some of those for me are: Pretty Woman, Jaws, Erin Brokovich, Dirty Dancing, Stand By Me, Terms of Endearment (and I cry every time!!), Steel Magnolias (again, I cry every single time even though I KNOW what’s going to happen)….that’s all I can think of right now.
Have a Happy Thanksgiving!
Love,
Kim
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